I can't see where He is, but I know you are out there somewhere. You are not hiding from me on purpose and you probably have a very good reason for doing so, but I just don't know what it is. I could have guessed where and taken a pot luck chance on being right but you had a clearer vision and way for me to go. If I had only looked to you first and seen clearly that way and in that direction and taken the right way off the first time.Yes I went astray and went my own way, doing what ever I liked in following the ways of the Devil, which I thought was right, more money, a good time and women without hope. I was hopelessly decieved and lost on a path of destruction, thinking that I could handle all my problems on my own and that I did not need God. I knew everything and so why would I need Him as if I did not know He had the keys to heaven and hell and life over death.

There was no excuse, but still I decided to go my own way and take all the chances that I could trying to win my own way in life instead of following the way of the great God who had been there before me and done everything esle that I could not do, to show me the way and lead me in the right direction to the path of life and eternity into eternal life of peace and love and kindness for ever and ever. No I was too stupid to want to do that, so I tried to realize everyting I could and do it all on my own without the help of anyone else. How wrong I was and I did not even know it. I thought I was invincable and indestructable, but God showed me clearly that he had an answer for that. My good job went, my car was written off, I had no friends and no girlfriends anymore. Life was meaningless and without direction, I had made it to the top all right, but ended up in the pits of hell scraping the bottom of the barrel and licking my saws like Job. If I had only read my Bible and started to see that, that Jesus was the way the truth and the life, I would have surely realized that God was the greatest and I was only a worm, which I started to do. The good news is that it is never too late, there is hope at the end of the tunnel if you will only wake up to yourself and turn your life around and follow the ways of the perfect saviour.

There was hope, there was a God, holding and shining the eternal light and He was still there waiting for me to change and see the error of my ways and follow Him. Which I did in the end and wow what a change. I saw the trees growing green instead of falling leaves, I saw the vast expance of the oceans and the stars stretched out throughout the universe. I saw the blue skies, instead of the grey and black ones in the clouds of deception. I saw the sun shining down on me instead of me looking up to it and Jesus smiling at me instead of frowning down upon me. He showed me the way to truth and life everlasting in His eternal realms of heaven. There was hope again, there was someone and somewhere to put my faith and there was love coming back to me when I showed love to others. People started to be kind to me, instead of hating me. God laughed instead of crying at someone who had gone astray and come back to Him. Did you not know, that there is more shouting and rejoicing in heaven when one sinner repents than all the righteous living, loving and celebrating.

Hear the call on your life and accept Jesus and come home to God, you will be so glad you did. Now I can see where, God is in heaven and I am on earth.