I cried the loudest tears of pain and wept unceasingly till I found God. I thought Iknew everything and I did everything my own way to the point of futility of not knowing who I was or what I was about or what I was meant to do in why I was put here on earth. Was there no reason and point to my life, was there any point in those years of tears and pain. The fact that God can use your hearts to teach you what is right no matter how far you have gione down the road to destruction as long as you recognise God and trun from your evil ways before it is too late and by that I mean dead in the grave. Don't let it get to that point, but see clearly the divine purpose and plan that God has for your life.

The sooner you recognise it, the better off you will be for the rest of your life, however long that takes, if you stay on the right path to life. The thing is that the sooner you come into a saving knowledge with God and a develope a right relationship with Him, the more time you will have to love, learn, listen, serve and enjoy, to experience all the peace and undertstanding of living the rest of your life, in a happy state of mind, with purpose, pleasure and love in knowing God. I thought I had love in my heart but I had pain and anquish, I thought what I was doing was right but was led up the garden path. Those briliant tears of love and hurts in expressing myself in joy and peace taught me to live a God filled life with meaning, purpose and understanding, instead of self gratification and personal desires to want more for myself all the time.

Those brilliant tears of happiness were not pain and suffering for no reason, but taught me the meaning and pupose, for a life of understanding. Knowing that I was a sinner was the hardest part to confess but the love of releasing all those years of hurt and pain into the loving arms of a saviour who died on the cross for me 2000 years ago, gave me peace and joy and understanding and made my life worth while by giving me peace and understanding beyond belief and joy and pleasure in loving and serving the Lord God who saved me from that downward spiral of a life of self destruction. It is never to late to release those tears of joy and peace, to turn your life around and live with purpose instead of meaningless self abuse

Don't give up and quit, give God a go and a chance, you will be surely rewarded with all the beautiful peace and understanding fo the kingdom of heaven. Brilliant tears are tears of joy and peace, not hurt and anquish even though the expression of that seems like it is at the time. God is above all your hurts and pains in God's tears of joy and happiness in welcoming a lost sinner back home into the kingdom of heaven.